I’m grateful I became health conscious instead of a health prisoner. Here’s what is funny about us humans. We will often see the truth of something in one area of our lives or someone else’s, but not be able to connect it to other areas or our own lives. We also might see the big picture of how something is true out in the world, and then not be able to reign it enough to see how that means if it is true out there, it is true in the heart too for our individual lives. Health is the perfect example of this for me. I was someone who had health issues for many years, but never connected that my self-abuse, self-contempt, self-hatred, self-neglect, and unhealed traumas. They were pieces to why my body was working against me. I couldn’t connect that if we are made up of energy and the energy I’m putting into my body is toxic, I’m going to attract toxic things to my body. I was a prisoner of my health. My perspectives (thoughts and beliefs) about my health kept me prisoner. I hope you’ve been following along with this series, because if you have you might be having alarm bells go off right now if you’ve been paying attention.
When I was in a toxic relationship, I was having all these issues with my sexual and reproductive organs. I felt physically ill more than I didn’t. My body at one point shut down as it was screaming NO MORE! I was in another toxic relationship where I couldn’t poop at my boyfriend’s house, even if I stayed there for days. My body was literally full of shit, as I was in complete denial to see how toxic the the relationship I was in really was. Another time, I had gained 20 additional pounds and I was in a battle to get it off. I looked at my body with disgust and then busted my ass exercising and starving myself as the weight kept coming on. I couldn’t see that where I was putting my energy was in what I DIDN’T WANT, so I was creating more of it.
As I got mentally, emotionally, and spiritually better, my health started to improve in a natural way. People would tell me that I looked ten years younger. Better than looking younger, my body felt so much better. At 40, a doctor told me my labs were as close to perfect health as he has seen. This was right when I was graduating college and starting to write blogs on FromALovingPlace.com. I had stopped doing the intense workouts and began to find ones that a my body loved, like nature walks and yoga. I didn’t have to be in pain to lose the weight, which was a message I had been told so many times. It’s a perspective that I bought into, and actually caused resistance for me because I don’t like being in pain LOL. I didn’t exercise for a long time because believing in those messages. Remember perspectives are our power or our prison.
This doesn’t mean I don’t have issues, believe me, I have things come up, but they are always there to teach me something. I just have to remain open enough to listen. This is how I stay health conscious instead of being a health prisoner. If I believe that things happen to me and not for me, I’m prisoner. If I believe that things happen for me, not to me, I’m in the power to change, grow, and expand from whatever I’m faced with. Those two beliefs feel very different in the body. They create different energy in the body. If I’m working against my body by being in the energy of fear, lack, and separation, and trying to conquer it—I’m screwing myself! Now, I focus on what I want to see more of with my body, which is love, abundance, and peace and I make health choices from there. Instead of focusing on what my body can’t do or where it isn’t, I focus on what I can do. I’m grateful my body is my vessel of learning and absorbing for this life. My body has so much to teach me, I just have to remain open to listen.
I’m so grateful I learned how to be health conscious, but just like everything else, it takes daily work and daily practice to stay present to what my body is telling me, and just because I hear what my body is telling me, doesn’t mean I always want to listen, but the more I stay aligned with love, abundance, and peace, the more willing I am to do the work. One perspective that has put the passion behind my daily work to live health conscious is that not taking care of my body is a form of self-abuse and self-neglect. Whatever we project out comes back. If I’m projecting out that I accept abuse and neglect, I will get that back in the relationships I attract to my life. Those relationships can be in my career, personal, physical, or spiritual life, depending on where my energy is focused. That gives me the drive to stay aligned with the energy of love, abundance, and peace DAILY!
Today, I commit to doing the work to stay health conscious. I know where my mind needs to be in order for me to do the best work for my body—aligned with love, abundance, and peace. As I’ve talked about before on Daily Aligning with Love, Abundance, and Peace, making lists about self-care can be very helpful, because when we really need self-care is when our minds are trapped inside a box of chaos (prison) that is filled with the energy of fear, lack, and separation. The directions are on the outside of the box written in the energy of love, abundance, and peace. That is the energy that frees us from the chaos. Knowing the tools we need to get out of the box before we get into the box, is a sure way of not being stuck in the box for too long. Here are some of the tools that work best to keep me health conscious:
- Loving myself exactly the way I am
- Healthy self-talk
- Taking nature walks
- Making time for social walks
- Tapping (EFT)
- Doing exercises I enjoy (the Simply Fit Board with weights for me)
- Making self-care a priority (Shaming ourselves is self-abuse)
- stretching and conscious movement exercises (This helps me feel areas of my body that are holding onto toxic energy)
- Being conscious of food and drink choices—paying attention to how they feel processing them and how they effect the health of my organs (overindulging in food, alcohol, drugs, etc is a form of self-abuse)
- Listening to what my body needs (I only can do this when my mind is in a healthy mindset)
- Asking/praying for guidance on how to move the blocked energy in my body
- Being open to seeing the lessons my body is trying to teach me
- Healing past traumas
- Aligning with love, abundance, and peace DAILY!
- Listening to audiobooks that I’m drawn to mental, emotional, and/or spiritual health
- Reading books and/or articles that I’m drawn to about healthy living
There is no order to this list, and this is my list based on the life lessons I’ve learned. We have to figure out our own lists because not everything that works for me will work for you, and vice versa. Some people need to have a solid practice of specific rituals they do every day, and that is what works for them. Some may need the community of supporters to help to keep them accountable. I’ve needed different things at different times. If going to church every Sunday contributes to your energy of love, abundance, and peace, then that is meant to be on your list. The only suggestion I have for anyone making their own list is really understand the difference in what feeds your energy of fear, lack, and separation and what feeds your energy of love, abundance, and peace. If you put things on your list that link you to the energy of fear, lack, and separation (activities, ideas, practices, thoughts, and/or beliefs that cause you to feel fear, shame, or guilt) you will stay a health prisoner.
One of the perspectives that kept me in the energy of fear, lack, and separation was my negative attachment to the word “should”. If my thoughts go to I should be… or if I’m told you should… I feel it in my body. Sometimes it’s guilt, other times it’s shame, but overall it’s the messages that tap into thoughts and beliefs that are linked into the fear, lack, and separation that lie within me. Part of living consciously is paying attention to how our bodies and minds react when something feels right and when something doesn’t.
If you need more help deciphering, I invite you do go back and read through past Daily Aligning with Love, Abundance, and Peace posts that guide you through this process (an easy way to scroll through these is at Facebook.com/LettersfromaBetterMe. You can also find a lot of insights in my 90-Day A Better Me Series (it’s free, just tap the name). Specifically for women, I have written the book Letters from a Better Me: How Becoming an Empowered Woman Transforms the World (click title for more information). This process happens in layers, more will always be revealed. Just stay open to the process and please don’t beat yourself up as you learn what works and what doesn’t for you. All that does is keep you in the energy of fear, lack, and separation, and the answers all lie in the energy of love, abundance, and peace.
With Love, Abundance, and Peace,
©Rachael Wolff 2021
Author of Letters from a Better Me: How Becoming an Empowered Woman Transforms the World (Click title for more information)