I’m grateful for waking up emotionally. I release a giant exhale as I write these words. Waking up emotionally and doing the work to STAY AWAKE has been such an incredible part of my journey. I’ve been through feeling so much that I didn’t want to feel anymore to feeling nothing. Then I worked through toxic positivity (different than healthy positivity), which was me ignoring, avoiding, and/or numbing any emotions that weren’t comfortable to getting angry when people wouldn’t allow me space to process my feelings. I’ve now settled in this beautiful place of being awake to my emotions and working through them as I stay aware of any STORY I’m attaching to the feelings as I allow them to pass through me. I’ve realized attaching to stories are the only thing that keeps my emotions from flowing through me peacefully.
I love the techniques I’ve picked up to detach from the stories, it’s helped me appreciate my actual EMOTIONS so much more. I have to show gratitude to Byron Katie for helping me see how believing my thoughts can cause me a lot of pain. I used to confuse my feelings with my stories. I didn’t see how I would spin myself into so much emotional pain over stories I was making up in my head. I’ve learned to look for other ways to look at the situation that aren’t painful. This is what helps me to honor my feelings in healthy ways.
Today, I commit to igniting my emotions in healthy ways. There are healthy and unhealthy ways of igniting emotions. Where I align my energy is what will make the process healthy or unhealthy. If I align my energy with love, abundance, and peace, I allow myself to process WHATEVER I’m feeling without attaching to a story that keeps my energy around the emotion aligned with the energy of fear, lack, and separation. I can feel fear, sadness, rejection, loneliness, anger, or hurt without getting lost in the energy of fear, lack, and separation. The way I do this is by becoming VERY aware of the stories I’m spinning in my head. Questioning my thoughts around the story I’m spinning helps me see that my thoughts are just perspectives that I have the power to change. I can then look at my feelings more clearly to see if they have actually been triggered by some past event that I haven’t healed yet.
Waking up to my emotions also helps me to release old ones that get stuck in my body causing me physical ailments too. I was AMAZED at what happened to me physically when I started truly taking care of myself emotionally. People physically noticed a difference and I felt a HUGE difference. Ailments that I felt for years went away once I started doing the physical and emotional work. I talked more about the physical yesterday. The next week I will be talking about each individual area of my wellness journey.
One of the things I’m working on getting better at is thanking God for every feeling I have. Having and being able to express emotions in healthy ways is a beautiful thing. My emotional health is just as important as my health in any other area of wellness. When I don’t allow my feelings to be what they are and work through them, all my other areas of wellness pay the price. That’s why I celebrate being able to ignite my emotions in healthy ways even if I do get uncomfortable.