I’m grateful for the gift of clarity. I love the moments when I just KNOW without any shadow of a doubt that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. I love when I hear a message that rings true because my body physically reacts with tingles and/or chills. I love when I feel fully aligned with love, abundance, and peace, because in that moment everything makes sense.
When I was stuck in my own prison blocked by the energy of fear, lack, and separation—NOTHING EVER MADE SENSE. That was a part of the chaos that kept me spinning on the endless hamster wheel of toxic thoughts. I was victim of my life. I couldn’t see a clear reason to wake-up in the morning. That way of living feels like a lifetime ago, but I can still remember how painful it was to live in that state of endless confusion 24/7.
The beauty of this amazing journey that I’m on now is that the clarity reaches deeper and deeper levels. I keep meeting people, reading books, and connecting to all the messages I receive with more and more clarity. The more time I spend in the energy of love, abundance, and peace, the clearer I see. The clearer I see, the more love I have to offer the world. It’s just that simple. That’s what makes doing the work on this journey WORTH it. I feel so incredibly blessed to have found this amazing path.
Today, I commit to honoring the gift of clarity. Honestly, it makes me want to dance. The thought of honoring clarity makes me feel like celebrating with movement. There is something about getting the blood flowing and feeling completely at one with every part of myself. That feels like it’s the best way for me to honor such an AWE-inspiring gift.
I sit here writing these words in such a grounded place of gratitude. I was willing to give-up my life over my lack of clarity as a teenage trauma survivor. The way I used to act back then came from the place of fear, lack, and separation, so life just kept spinning me around until I didn’t want to stand anymore. Now, when I get curious about a why or how something works, it’s not because I’m in a place of lack. I know the answer is already inside me. I know I have to move through my own blocks to see it. This is how I embrace my questions with energy of love, abundance, and peace.
If something isn’t working in my life, I know it’s because I’m going to discover something important in the not working. If someone was cruel to me or someone I love, I know that it’s practice for me to stay in the energy of love, abundance, and peace. I’m not always going to do it, but I find my way back to the energy faster and faster. Just to clarify, staying in the energy of love, abundance, and peace does NOT mean accepting unacceptable behavior. That is not showing love for myself. I’m not acting in the energy of love, abundance, and peace if I’m not showing myself the love and respect that I deserve. I can put up healthy boundaries and/or walk away from a loving place. I used to think that staying in the energy of love, abundance, and peace meant that I didn’t make waves. Oh no!!! If I need to make waves to show myself and the people I love support, I will do it. I just won’t do it by attacking someone else by going down to an unhealthy persons level. If I do that, my energy is exactly where their’s is. I like to rise above with love.
I look at the life of Jesus as an example of how this is possible. I also look at people like Martin Luther King, Jr., Mother Teresa, Byron Katie, and Eckhart Tolle, just to name a few. My clarity helped me see that nobody else’s behavior gives me an excuse to feed the energy of fear, lack, and separation. I CHOOSE to go there. I CHOOSE to do that. If I can choose to do that, I can choose to stay in the energy of love, abundance, and peace too. I just need a little more practice and keep my energy focused on others who are choosing that too.
If I want clarity, I don’t go to people or places that are feeding the energy of fear, lack, and separation. That’s how I stay in confusion and chaos. When I want clarity, I go to friends, thought leaders, and places that are fueled with the energy of love, abundance, and peace. I promise you, if I go to a friend who is going to jump in the ditch with me, feed me alcohol, dive into the sweets, and/or indulge in shop therapy, I’m not in the place of seeking clarity. I’m seeking escape. That is not the friend’s fault. I chose that friend because I wanted escape.
I’m not going to go running to stories that are fueling my anger, rage, and victimhood if I want clarity, because I’m choosing them because I want to stay in the energy of fear, lack, and separation. I won’t be able to see clearly from a place of blood-boiling rage or feeling like I can’t do anything to feel better because of what has been done to me. When I stay in the energy of love, abundance, and peace, there is away through even the toughest of feelings, but I have to want to be there first. If I don’t, I won’t see solutions from that place.
Clarity isn’t about avoiding, suppressing, or running from our feelings either. When we feel through our feelings without the story, feelings have the potential to bring us so much clarity. We have to be willing to fully see them to be able to achieve clarity. It can be painful, ugly, and eye draining. If we don’t feel through them, those feelings get shoved down into our bodies and keep coming up as emotional triggers when they are felt again. This is food for toxic relationships and energy vampires.
The clearer we get, the more we respond and the less we react to unhealthy things or people we encounter. When our energy is aligned with love, abundance, and peace, we put this beautiful energetic forcefield around ourselves. It doesn’t protect us from hard stuff happening, but it protects us from that hard stuff affecting us on deeper level. It keeps us from taking someone’s toxic energy on as our own.
I used to have P.T.S.D. flashbacks on a pretty regular basis. Then as I aligned more with the energy that I wanted to be living in, they became less and less. It was only when I was going against myself in a situation where I felt uncomfortable that a flashback would return. I haven’t had a flashback in a number of years now, but that episode was a reminder that when I stay aligned with the energy of love, abundance, and peace, I will get CLEAR signs in how to keep my energy safe. Clarity is a beautiful and healing gift when it is fully embraced.
With Love, Abundance, and Peace,
©Rachael Wolff 2021
Author of Letters from a Better Me: How Becoming an Empowered Woman Transforms the World — Click the book cover to get your path to clarity today.