I’m grateful that I can find the light in any situation. Now, I want to be clear that this in no way means I suppress my feelings when they are dark or that I avoid or numb feelings when something tragic or traumatic happens. I FEEL everything! I just don’t stay in the energy that creates more dark within me and around me. I’ve realized that I’ve become the observer of my stories when I’m working through challenging feelings. I still feel them, I just allow them to move out of me without attaching to a story that is keeping me there. I find the light. Gaining the tools to do this has changed so much for me. I got so many opportunities to practice my tools in 2020. I’m so grateful that I have figured out that if I choose to see the light, it doesn’t mean that anyone else has to see it.
I’m going to choose to find the light in any situation because that is part of MY journey. If people choose not to see it, that is part of their journey. I’m only responsible and accountable for the energy I put out into the world. I’m not here to try to force anyone to believe what I do. I’m here to share what I believe and if it resonates, I trust that what you are reading is a part of your journey. That is an example of how the light works.
I love when I’m struggling with something and a particular person pops in my brain to call. I call and they are available to talk or to see me. Then when we are together, I get what I need to move me out of my own darkness—That’s the light at work. When I am lost in a story spinning in my head and a bird comes up and knocks on the window—That’s the light at work. When I wanted to go on a six-week road trip with my kids and the ways to do it appeared—That’s the light at work. When I prayed for God’s wisdom and was provided with the clearest signs leading me in the right direction even though I didn’t understand the timing at all—That’s the light at work. All the darkness that I’ve experienced in my life has only ever made my light shine brighter.
Today, I commit to finding the light in any circumstance I’m faced with. I’ve survived and thrived after experiencing humanity’s darkness on multiple occasions. I choose not to spin stories that make contributing to the darkness of humanity okay. I choose to allow myself to feel everything and then hold it with love. That love is the light. Love is ALWAYS at the core of the light. Part of me finding the light in any circumstance is projecting a powerful love for myself because I know how painful it is to stay in the darkness of fear for extended periods of time.
Self-care is a HUGE part of finding the light. Like I said before, I’m only accountable and responsible for the energy I put out in the world. If I want to contribute to light in the world, I have to take action and contribute to the light within me. That is how I brighten my torch to shine out to the world.
Finding the light has become a natural part of what I do. I have specific friends I talk to when I’m not seeing it or if I want to make my light shine brighter. I obviously do a lot of writing. When I’m really struggling, I write a letter to God. I’m always amazed in what comes out in those letters. Many times those hidden feelings keeping me stuck are revealed there. Once I’ve released the feeling, I allow it to move through me. I feel much lighter after I complete that process (pun intended). I also practice deep breathing and visualize a light in my mind’s eye spreading through me. Just doing this stops any stories that aren’t serving me and gives me a chance to replace them with ones that do.
One of the things that keeps me from seeing the light is consuming myself with other people’s stories. I used to invest ALL my time and energy in what everyone else was doing, which was me just avoiding taking responsibility for my own stuff. I didn’t want to look inward, so I focused outward. I lived in complete lack. That is a very dark place because nothing I had was ever enough and I only thought I would be happy if something outside of me changed. When I started looking inward and turning to abundance instead of lack, all this love showed up in my life. Everything that wasn’t energized with love fell out of my life. It really was amazing. Realizing that I’m the only one responsible and accountable for my energy got me excited to WANT to find the light in every situation.
With Love, Abundance, and Peace,
©Rachael Wolff 2021
Author of Letters from a Better Me: How Becoming an Empowered Woman Transforms the World – Click title to learn more