I’m grateful for the process. I used to dread the future, but now I love watching how it all unfolds. I’ve learned to follow my inner callings and trust that there is a reason I am where I am at every moment, even when I find myself binge watching a show. There is something I get from watching the relationships playing out in front of me. If I wasn’t meant to watch what I did, I wouldn’t have seen it. Just like if I am meant to read a book, I will. If I’m not meant to read it, I won’t. If something or someone is meant to be a part of my path, I will experience whatever life presents to me—even if at the time I don’t understand why. Living in the process is about being engaged in the journey instead of focused on the destination.
There are so many amazing discoveries and insights that are revealed. What I’ve realized is that we are not powerless on this road. We are making choices all along the way that create the opportunities that are ahead and it all depends on where our energy is aligned to how these opportunities will reveal themselves.
I used to believe the lessons had to cause me great pain in order for me to absorb them, but then I discovered that wasn’t true. It depended on if my energy was aligned with love, abundance, and peace or fear, lack, and separation. When I began paying close attention to the process, I saw how amazing it is to choose differently in a moment and watch how things changed. When I’m aligned with the energy of love, abundance, the process reflects the energy.
Seeing all this didn’t happen overnight and it doesn’t mean that I don’t lose myself from time to time in the energy of fear, lack, and separation. It just happens less and for shorter periods of time when it does. The one thing that used to trip me up is the labels. When I gave myself a label or someone else gave me a label, I would often try to live up to what my or what I thought society defined the label as. When that happened, my process became about how to make others happy out of fear, lack, and separation. I started becoming aware of the process, the the tools to make things better started presenting themselves to me along the way. I’m grateful for seeing both my healthy and unhealthy processes, because only when I understand how the process works, do I know what to do to make them better.
Today, I commit to engaging in the process. All it takes to engage in the process is to consciously watch where I am and what I am doing throughout the day. Awareness is my survival tool. If I watch my process and I don’t like the results I’m getting, I can make different choices and observe the difference in the way I feel, think, and act. I can also observe the differences of how people reflect back to me what I put out. If I want to change what is reflected back to me, I have to change what I’m thinking and doing, my feelings change with whatever energy I’m aligning to either love, abundance, and peace or fear, lack, and separation.
When I find joy in the process, I become a beacon of joy. I lead joy to me. When I find misery in the process, I become a beacon of misery. I lead misery to me. Hmmmm…which will I choose? When I engage and stay aware, I give myself the access to choose differently in a moment. If I’m not engaged, I can easily put energy where I don’t want it to go. I really try to avoid doing that.Throughout the day, I’m going to be the observer of the process step by step, choice by choice.
- Where are my thoughts, beliefs, and actions taking me in this moment?
- What am I creating in this moment?
- How is my energy aligning with what I want reflected back to me?
- Who is in my life and what are they mirroring back to me right now?
- Is there anything I want to do differently in the next moment?
Sometimes what we need to see in the process is scary, ugly, informative, beautiful, magical, etc. Just because we experience something that is challenging doesn’t mean that experience isn’t for our highest good. I’ve experienced and seen some very scary things in my life, but what is amazing now is that I’m seeing how they were all a part of the creative process of my journey. I look back in AWE of how some of these pieces are coming together now. I’m finding more and more gifts each step of the way.
If you are reading this post, it’s a part of your process. If you think a friend of yours should read this post and they don’t, it’s because it’s not a part of their process. The experiences we are meant to have on our journeys will happen. That’s part of the reason I don’t feel tied to who reads what I write and who doesn’t. I know whoever is meant to read it will, and whoever isn’t won’t. It’s just that simple. I don’t know what others will have to go through to get to a place where they feel aligned with love, abundance, and peace. Some will CHOOSE to stay in the energy of fear, lack, and separation, but that is their choice, their process to be accountable and responsible for.
The only person’s process I’m accountable and responsible for is my own. It’s my job to create the life that is best for me. My focus is on serving the highest good and my process reveals to me how I can do that step by step.