I’m grateful for the breakdown to breakthrough. Every time I think about this concept, I consider the journey of the butterfly. We don’t just get from nothing to flying, there is a process and if we try to avoid the process, we will never be able to fly. Our struggles (the caterpillar) give us essential tools to grow and learn from. We may feel like we are breaking down as we go inward into that period of deep feeling (the chrysalis), but really we are transforming. Now, unlike the butterfly, we are much more complex. So, we can go through the transformation process over and over. We also can stay in our struggles and embrace the art of avoidance (addiction), suppression (inner rage, shame, and disease), and/or victim mentality (living in blame and giving our power away). We can also choose to stay in our chrysalises where we stay so much inside that we don’t apply our tools that we learn from our struggles to the outside world.
When I learned to see the breakdown as a doorway to breakthrough, my life was presented with opportunities to learn, grow, and transform. This concept actually took me from a suicidal teen to an abundant adult. It was a long journey, and I’ve had many lessons to learn along the way. I’m still learning and growing on a daily basis. I’ve moved through multiple transformation processes and my colors get brighter and brighter every time. The process also happens faster and faster. What used to take me down, I now embrace. I remember the girl I was who would go so far down that I thought the best solution would be to die. I was submerged in the energy of fear, lack, and separation. I thought people would be better off without me here (separation). I didn’t feel like I was worthy or lovable (lack). I lived in the constant feeling that I was being punished and life was happening to me, not for me (fear).
When I embraced the breakdown to breakthrough concept, I began to experience love on all kinds of new levels. I started to focus on gratitude, and what I could do (abundance). I figured out that I had been applying a definition of love (unconscious) to my life that wasn’t healthy. Once I started applying the new definition (conscious) inward, I was able to connect to myself, spirit, and others on a whole different level (peace). This process is a big part of why I doing the working in aligning daily with love, abundance, and peace.
Today, I commit to feeling through my challenges to find solutions on the other side. I showed an example of how I’m doing this in Daily Aligning with Love, Abundance, and Peace #68. I was watching how repetitive cycles were affecting me inside, then I made sure to make changes accordingly. It reminded me how important it is to FEEL through the challenges. If I would have went for the glass of wine to take the edge off, I wouldn’t have looked at the cycles I was engaging in like I did, because the wine would have calmed my nerves which is what was giving me the message to change something. I’m not against wine, I just know that if I drink it when I’m getting a signal, I don’t tend to change the behavior that took me to the feeling of NEEDING a glass of wine. If I feel like I NEED a glass of wine, that is actually my signal to go inward and look at how what is going on in the moment is affecting me. I quickly find out that I don’t need a glass of wine, but I need to change a pattern I’ve created to stir up that feeling.
When we see rage acting out in the world, that comes from a lot of suppressed feelings. Suppressed feelings from fear, lack, and separation will find away to project out to our relationships. Usually creating a lot of drama. When we face our feelings and our challenges by allowing ourselves to fully process what is going on inside of us, we free ourselves to find solutions to shift our energy back to a place of love, abundance, and peace. The other day, I drove by a man handcuffed, sitting on the ground, and surrounded by cops. Later, I found out that this man shot his wife multiple times. Suppressed feelings that turn into rage can bring out the darkest parts of us. When we go outward, we can easily fall into blame, which takes away our power to shift out of the energy of fear, lack, and separation. When we go inward, we can see areas where we aren’t serving the energy of love, abundance, and peace within us. We can embrace our feelings and challenges with that energy and create shifts in our behaviors, thoughts, patterns, feelings, and actions that will free us instead of imprison us.
Just for today, when feelings or challenges come up, go inward. Look at if your perceptions of the situation aligned you with fear, lack, and separation. Consider other possibilities of thought that would align you with the energy of love, abundance, and peace. Feel through whatever feelings are coming up. Pay attention to where you feel the feeling in your body. When have you had that feeling before? Embrace that feeling with energy of love, abundance, and peace through your breathing. Get creative and just look at possible solutions in thinking, feeling, and action that could serve you and others better. Just this simple act can help you move through any negative energy that is building up inside of you. Give yourself time, if a feeling triggers YEARS of suppressed feelings, a lot more work will go into helping you release them and come up with solutions. Be patient and kind with yourself. I still have triggers come up that I need to work through. They are learning opportunities. I like to think that they come up to help me go deeper and heal and thrive even more. This perspective helps me see that even if I feel like I’m breaking down in the moment, I’m on my way to the breakthrough. That perspective keeps me feeling empowered, no matter how dark it gets.
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With Love, Abundance, and Peace,
©Rachael Wolff 2020
Author of Letters from a Better Me: How Becoming an Empowered Woman Transforms the World