I’m grateful for the inner knowing that my soul is safe. For a very long time, I didn’t feel this way. Years ago, I had so many layers of shame stories that made me feel unlovable and unworthy. I had so much self hatred. I did things that hurt myself and others. I didn’t even know how much I abused myself until I attracted that level of abuse back to me. I didn’t feel safe in this life, let alone considering dying with all the hate I had in my heart. I was so driven by fear, lack, and separation that I spun so much fear that I was afraid of facing my maker when I died. I actually believed I wasn’t worthy of even God’s love. As I’ve said before, my definition of what God’s love represents is the purest love there is, when I didn’t feel that love inside me, I couldn’t feel that love from ANY outside source.
When I started to authentically love myself, the inner knowing that my soul is safe became stronger and stronger. The better I was to myself, the more I could serve others in a wholehearted way. I am accountable and responsible for my mistakes without condemning myself, and it DOES NOT MATTER what ANYONE else believes about my soul. What energy another person puts into me, is none of my business. They are accountable and responsible for their own energy. If I take on someone else’s energy or seek revenge, I am responsible for that energy. Nobody can MAKE me take revenge. When I used to engage in the energy of revenge, my soul didn’t feel safe, because that energy is aligned with the darkness in humanity. If I feel hate brewing inside of me, I know that is my energy to resolve and that has NOTHING to to with the person, place, or thing that I’m hating. When I release my soul from that energy, I feel free and safe.
Today, I commit to resting in the energy of love, abundance, and peace—My soul is safe. My fear of death disappeared when I started allowing my energy to rest in this beautiful place. I love to practice with saying prayers for people who are hurting others. I say prayers for people who are trapped in the energy of fear, lack, and separation. I picture people who do hurtful things that are aimed at me looking at themselves instead. I realize that it takes a lot of self-hate to intentionally hurt someone else. When I stopped self-abusing, I stopped putting myself in the path of people who were looking for someone to take their pain out on. I couldn’t do that though until my energy was aligned with love, abundance, and peace.
If you are reading this and you feel like you are not surrounded by healthy people, start doing this daily work of aligning your energy. You will find that the more aligned you are, the people who surround you will change. There will either be new people or the old relationships will change. I have healed many of my relationships by working on aligning my own energy. The more aligned my energy is with love, abundance, and peace, the safer my soul feels. If you read my book, you will see how I shifted my life to what it is now and get all the tools to do it.
Today, I will use meditation to help me rest in the energy of love, abundance, and peace. I’ve spent a lot of time cleaning up my side of the street (i.e. my business, my problems, my stories). At this point, I simply close my eyes, take a deep cleansing breath in, and release in the knowing that my soul is safe because I’m doing my best to align with love, abundance, and peace daily. Just that simple thought brings tears of joy and peace to my eyes. The only SOUL I’m responsible and accountable for is my own. It’s not my job to judge someone else’s journey. They are here with a purpose to serve just like I am. The second I put my energy in their business and align it with fear, lack, and separation, I am responsible and accountable for that energy. I discovered it’s just not worth it. I simply do what I need to do to take care of my energy, that way I can show up for the people I love in the best way possible and…my soul is safe.