An Apology for What I Missed

Dear Now,

I never knew how against you I really was. I thought I was more attuned than I actually am. A passage in A New Earth: Awakening Your Life’s Purpose by Eckhart Tolle just opened my eyes. He explains, “There are three ways in which the ego will treat the present moment: as a means to an end, as an obstacle, or as enemy” (p.202). As I read on it became clearer as to how I really have been treating you. 

As grateful as I am for all my many blessing, I’m finally seeing how I created some serious obstacles to abundance and growth. I’ve been missing so many moments of presence by just getting through a period of time.  If I just get through this time, then I can do… fill in the blank. I’ve used my present moment as an obstacle, hence an excuse not to embrace the moment. It’s because I’m here that I can’t do… fill in the blank. Finally, time has definitely been my enemy as I put my walls up and go into survival mode. When I’m in a situation where I feel attacked and unappreciated, I can slip right past you and not see what is really going on. I’m so far beyond the present moment. I can honestly say, I don’t even know what is happening when I get like this. 

I can’t tell you how sorry I am for being so unaware of how my actions are making me miss some very important moments and opportunities. I’m working on being present and not taking you for granted. I know in every moment that I have air moving through my lungs, I have an opportunity to be grateful. When I am with you and can stay with you, the pain in a moment can be transformed. I can see more than meets the eye when I honor you. 

Right NOW, I commit to having a better relationship with you. I will do as Tolle suggests:

“What is my relationship with the present moment? Then become alert to find out the answer. Am I treating the Now as no more than a means to an end? Do I see it as an obstacle? Am I making it into an enemy?(p. 203)

I know that by doing this, I will find the oneness with life that I’ve been in search of. I know the obstacles will fall away and I will get to experience the one thing I’ve been missing in my everyday life, you. 

I will no longer have to go somewhere else to appreciate a moment of awe, I can do it right here and Now, with you. 

With Love and Gratitude, 

A Better Me

Rachael Wolff ©2020, 2018

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#PerspectiveChallenge: I’m NOT Where I’m Supposed to Be


The belief, I’m not where I’m supposed to be can be debilitating. Instantly it puts us in the mindset that focuses us on what we don’t want. That energy flows out of us like toxic sludge. Other people do and will pick up on it. If it is a relationship, career, friends, community, and/or spirituality we are chasing, we come off desperate and needy. We spend so much time chasing, we are not where our feet are. We miss the blessings that happen in the present moment. We miss the signs to lead us in a positive direction. We may even try to numb ourselves with apps, shopping, gambling, eating, drugs, and /or alcohol, instead of taking the necessary steps to keep us moving towards our dreams. 

We can have dreams and goals without believing, I’m not where I’m supposed to be. We lock ourselves in a box and limit our movement when we let that negative belief sink in. We can choose to enjoy the journey while having dreams and goals at the same time. This keeps us present. This keeps us appreciating the signs and being grateful for the blessings that only can be seen when we stay PRESENT!

We aren’t and can’t be present while believing, I’m not where I’m supposed to be. We resist the moment with that very thought. 


  1. Get in front of the mirror and say, “I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be in this moment.” Repeat it, write it down, and repeat it some more. 
  2. Right down your goals and dreams—be specific and stay positive. No attachments to the negative (i.e. I don’t want to be poor. I don’t want an abusive relationship).  I want to be and feel abundant in every way. I want a healthy relationship. If these are things you want, go within them and be as specific as you can. 
  3. Make the most out of the moment you are in. What can you do right now to move you in a positive direction? It can be as simple as writing down three things you are grateful for, because abundant living starts with gratitude. If you are not appreciating what you already have, you will NEVER be abundant no matter how much you have. 

Have a perspective-filled day!

With Love and Gratitude, 

Rachael Wolff ©2020

39 MORE DAYS until the release of LETTERS FROM A BETTER ME!