Letters From A Better Me
90-Day A Better Me Letters Series
Part I: A Journey of Awareness
What Holds Us Back: The Unstable Foundation
Day 8: Bringing Awareness to My Childhood Shame
Dear Inner Child,
I’m so sorry that I’ve looked over your pain for so long. I didn’t realize that my avoidance of looking at your pain was actually affecting my decision making as the adult I am today. I didn’t see that my need for approval came from you feeling like you weren’t valuable. I didn’t see your shame.
Today, I’m bringing awareness to my childhood shame, so I see your pain. I know I can only heal the pain that I’m willing to look at head on. This doesn’t mean I have to dredge up the particular things that hurt you. I just need to look at your hurt, sadness, and despair for thinking you deserved not feeling good enough for this life.
I know bad things happened to you, but that doesn’t mean you deserved any of them. How people treated you and continue to treat me was/is their wounds to heal. My job is to work on how I treat you. I don’t have to shame you anymore. You are worthy of my love. You are worthy of our Creator’s love. We can’t determine other humans’ capability to love, but if someone doesn’t love you it’s not a reflection on who you are. It is a reflection on who they are. Even I can choose not to show you love, but it still doesn’t mean that you aren’t worthy of it. It doesn’t mean you are unlovable. YOU ARE LOVABLE! YOU DESERVE LOVE!
Your ability to survive and persevere everything that you experienced, even well before you could understand and comprehend it, shows me how strong I really am. Now that I can see it, I can heal it. I can choose to live differently today. I can choose to be better. I couldn’t have got to where I am in this moment without appreciating all the battles you went through to get me here. Thank you for not giving up. You are loved and appreciated!
With Love and Gratitude,
A Better Me
Rachael Wolff ©2019
Companion Piece: 90-Day A Better Me Series: Day 8 – Childhood Shame