90-Day A Better Me Letters Series
Part I: A Journey of Awareness
What Holds Us Back: The Unstable Foundation
Day 26: Questioning Beliefs on Why My Foundation Continues to Crumble
Letters from A Better Me
As I look deeply in the mirror past all my walls of fear and judgment, I question what lies underneath it all. How did I get to the place that I look through life with a vision of fear? What must I believe underneath all these thoughts that keep me from love? Do I believe people are out to get me? WHY? Do I believe I’m being punished? WHY? Do I believe that I don’t deserve to be here? WHY? What created this prison of the mind? Why do I feel it necessary to numb myself? Am I scared of what lies beneath?
There are so many questions. I know I’m following many beliefs blindly without considering how the beliefs are affecting my peace, joy, and well-being. My beliefs tell me that is not important. WHY??? The unhealthier I am, the unhealthier the environment I create around me is. I lash out at others for my lack of peace inside. The two belief systems don’t line up. No wonder there is a constant battle going on inside of me. I can’t believe that I don’t matter and expect the world to treat me like I do. I can’t expect do something that matters if I have no personal value in myself.
I’m committed to becoming aware of the belief systems that are causing my foundation to crumble. I need to consciously choose, embrace, and practice living according to beliefs that will make me the best version of myself. I’m ready to become aware of when I’m sabotaging myself by the beliefs that I hold out of fear. I’m ready to investigate my thoughts and work on re-framing them to carry the messages that are beneficial to me and my growth. I know by being better, I can do better for others. I want to put my energy where it matters most and stop wasting it on beliefs that are dragging me down and keeping me trapped.
I’m ready to set myself free! I don’t need anybody else to do anything in order for me to do this for myself. My journey starts in the mirror going deep down into the beliefs that keep me from living my life from a loving place. I can and will live better today!
With Love and Gratitude,
A Better Me
Rachael Wolff ©2019
Don’t forget to read today’s companion piece, “The Crumbling Foundation in the Mirror” posted earlier today.