Letters from A Better Me

Letters from A Better Me

90-Day A Better Me Letters Series

Part I: A Journey of Awareness

What Holds Us Back: The Unstable Foundation

Day 5: Fear As A Decision Maker

To Fear as a Decision Maker,
I’ve let you be in charge of my decision making processes for long enough. I’ve hurt myself, relationships, and my life just by leaving you in charge. I missed out on so many amazing opportunities because I’m scared of some unknown future. I’ve put my energy into so many things that I’m against in fear of future of having them around. I’m tired and worn down from being scared all the time.
Each decision I make I find myself going back and forth out of fear. I’m at the point where I don’t know what fears are legitimate and which ones aren’t. I see you laughing as I chose you once again. I feel a deep pressure each time I enlist you in the decision making process.
You’ve had power over me because I was unconscious of what you were doing. Not anymore! I’m committed to acknowledging you when you creep in to my decision making process. I will actively question and look at you in order to diminish your power over me and my relationships.
If I feel like I’m fighting against something in my conversations I will slow down and ask questions to help me remain open and stay away from fear.
I’m committed to looking at what I stand for instead of putting my energy into what I’m against. Life is too short to waste time having to fight people to be right because of the power of my fears. I don’t have to be against people because they don’t believe what I do. That is just me leaving you in charge of my decision making.
I will learn to decipher healthy fear from living in fear. Thank you for teaching me so much about myself. Thank you for showing me the dangers of letting you lead the way. I really want to be a better person for my family, friends, community, country and world. I can’t do that if I contribute to others being defensive around me. If I’m doing that- I’m just creating more fear.
I feel capable of doing better now. I can live life from a more loving place.
With Love and Gratitude,
A Better Me
Rachael Wolff ©2019