Letters From A Better Me
90-Day A Better Me Letters Series
Part I: A Journey of Awareness
What Holds Us Back: The Unstable Foundation
Day 24: Processing My Feelings to Avoid Manifesting Hate
Please read 90-Day A Better Me Series: Day 24 – Manifesting Hate before reading this letter.
I’m feeling a mix of feelings, which include anger, rage, frustration, sadness, and fear. I’ve noticed I’m projecting these feelings out in unhealthy ways and I’m left feeling drained, depressed, and withdrawn. I’m letting my fear’s energy take over me. I’m contributing to the hate by letting myself get triggered by media reports and social media posts. I feel the rage inside me well up like a fireball as I hear about all the hate coming from people who are refusing to listen to each other. I’m contributing to the energy by silently brewing and letting the anger fester inside me. I’m steering my energy to a place that I don’t want to attract it back. Here’s my plan to change the direction my energy is going:
I’m choosing to let go of the anger because it has no place in my body. I’m choosing to focus my energy on the love I see in the world. I’m looking up stories of inspiration, hope, and positive change. This inspires me! My tears well up with joy when I see people being good to one another. I love seeing the stories of the strangers who drop everything and step up for others. I want to keep this joy in love in my heart.
Instead of focusing on all the wrongs in the world including all the corruption and violence, my attention is going to go towards officers who are doing the right things. Politicians who I see as a genuinely good people who care about the countries they serve. I’m not going to limit myself to particular parties, I will focus on the people who help us come up with solutions to think of the whole, not one side vs. the other. I’m not going to manifest more separation by seeing my ideas and myself as separate. I will focus on the people who spread messages of love, it doesn’t matter if I believe every word they say, as long as I genuinely feel what they are spreading is love, I will support that. Doing these things makes me feel good inside. I feel lightness and so much gratitude for all the people who inspire loving action.
I’m becoming more conscious of how I’m talking to myself and how when I belittle myself I’m feeding into the hate cycle. I’m doing the work to fuel my self-love so I project that instead of self-hate. I’m responsible for my feelings, but I’m not going to blame myself for having them. I just need to work through them step by step so I don’t take them out on someone else and manifest more hate.
As for my actions and reactions, I will consciously choose actions that support living life from a loving place. I will do my best to remain present, so that I consider the people around me as well as myself. I will smile and laugh more to focus on spreading joy. I will do my best in conflict to stay present to what I stand FOR instead of Focusing on what I am AGAINST.
I’m grateful for all my feelings that come up in me. I can learn from every feeling and thought that I experience. I’m committed to my journey of becoming the best version of myself.
With Love and Gratitude,
A Better Me
Rachael Wolff ©2019