90-Day A Better Me Letters Series: Day 56 – The Safety of My Self-Love

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What Launches Us Forward: The Stable Foundation

Day 56: The Safety of My Self-Love

Dear Universe,

I feel so incredibly safe since I started truly loving myself. I know I’m on this journey doing the best I can. I have to commit to growing and expanding the love within me. I can only do that by uncovering the things that are blocking me from experiencing the full capacity of my love. I can’t put my faith in human interpretations of words. I have to go deeper. I have to find my connections in the loving energy that the words can’t express, but that actions can show. It’s more important for me to grow and expand than shrink and contain.

I’m a big fan of people who live with love as their guiding force; some are Christians, some are Jews, some are Muslims, some are Hindus, some are Buddhists, some are atheists, some are Democrats, some are Republicans, some are Americans, Some have dark skin, some have light skin, some are homosexual, some are heterosexual, some are women, some are men, and I can go on and on. Loving energy cannot be contained into any one path or any one title. When I found the love within myself beyond what I’ve been taught to fear—I found peace, connection, love, hope, and joy.

I will choose paths spiritually, physically, emotionally, mentally, and financially that help me to understand love and how to live my life from a loving place from the inside out. I choose people to guide me on my personal path who teach me how to expand my love, help me accept all of my light and darkness within me, so that I can serve humanity shining my brightest light possible. Any belief (perspective of truth) I choose that keeps me from experiencing love is a belief to be questioned and transformed. I’m embracing the all-encompassing energy of love, which means I need to know how to love and honor myself so that the love is always safe and secure.

The safety of my self-love protects me and keeps my boundaries healthy. I love the journey I’m on. I love getting to learn about the fears I still have and the ones I’ve grown out of. I love that no matter how others treat me; I will love me more and do what is best for my journey. I love me, so I take care of me. I can’t expect someone else to take care of me better than I’m taking care of myself. If someone’s energy isn’t healthy for me to be around, I have to make choices to protect me, not from a place of fear, but from a place of self-care. I want to serve the world with my best foot forward, and I can only do that by putting the oxygen mask on me first. The better I treat myself, the better I can treat the world outside of me.

I’m growing my own beautiful garden within my mind. I’m choosing to nourish this garden with lots of love. I’m choosing to grow and expand this garden through my loving actions towards myself and others. I’m choosing seeds from other’s beautiful gardens that match the loving energy I have inside me. How I maintain my garden is up to me. What plants, trees, and flowers I choose to plant is up to me. What seeds I choose to let go of is up to me. I choose not to let the smothering vines of fear take over my garden. I want to dig them out from the roots. Those roots told me I wasn’t lovable exactly as I am. Those roots said I had no value or worth. Those roots told me to fear what is different. I’m digging these roots up. I’m learning from what happens when I leave these vines unattended. I’m seeing how my self-love keeps these vines from coming back and smuggling all my beautiful species I’ve planted.

I’m worthy of the love I give to myself. I’m worthy of the time I contribute to my self-care. I’m worthy of the nurturing I feed my body, mind, and soul. I am created from Divine Energy, the purest of all lights. I honor the energy that created me by letting my love for myself shine through connecting me to Source energy, the strongest and most beautiful light that lives within me.

Today I’m Grateful

  1. I’m grateful that love cannot be contained within any ONE path
  2. I’m grateful to know my worth so that I can love myself
  3. I’m grateful for each day I get to expand and grow from the love within me
  4. I’m grateful for the opportunities I get to learn from other people’s loving actions
  5. I’m grateful to connect to the light of the Divine through the light shining within me.

 

With Love and Gratitude,

 

A Better Me

 

Rachael Wolff ©2019

Don’t forget to read today’s companion piece: 90-Day A Better Me Series: Day 56 – The Safe Foundation of Self-Love

90-Day A Better Me Letters Series: Day 35 – Embracing Love on My Spiritual Journey

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90-Day A Better Me Letters Series

Part II: A Journey of Perspective

What Launches Us Forward: The Stable Foundation

Day 35: Embracing Love on My Spiritual Journey

Dear Divine Creator Source of ALL Love,

I’m so incredibly grateful for your love. I’m grateful for the path you have set before me to give and receive lessons of love, and learn about the power I can choose to give fear or not. Some of my lessons of love have been those defined as miracles and blessings. Some of my lessons about find love through fear have been long and challenging, but in the end every experience I’ve had on this journey is worth it because it has brought me closer to you.

Each day I find new ways to not feed the darkness inside of me. I find new ways to shine my light bigger and brighter. I finally understand that you aren’t judging me for not being perfect. You give me space to learn and grow. When I love more, you bring more love into my life. When I fear more, you bring me more lessons of fear to learn from. Each time I embrace love, I’m connecting to you.

I’ve seen how fear takes me away from you, so I choose to work through my fears with a loving heart to connect to you daily. When I serve others with love, I feel so incredibly energized by your love flowing through every molecule in my body.  When I serve in fear, I distance myself from you. I feel judgment, resentment, anger, fear, blame, and shame boil up inside of me. I feel blocked from feeling your love when I’m there. I get easily lost and frustrated when I’m far from you.  I’m so grateful I get opportunities to learn.

Thank you for showing me that your light shines within me at ALL times. I just have to choose to embrace love on my spiritual journey and I see the magnificence of your all-encompassing love. Thank you for teaching me the difference between love and fear. I’m ready to  fully embrace love on my spiritual journey!

 

With Love and Gratitude,

 

A Better Me

 

Rachael Wolff ©2019

Did you read today’s companion piece? 90-Day A Better Me Series: Day 35 – Love in Our Spirituality

90-Day A Better Me Series: Day 35 – Love in Our Spirituality

s90-Day A Better Me Series

Part II: A Journey of Perspective

What Launches Us Forward: The Stable Foundation

Day 35: Love in Our Spirituality

“Love is the ultimate Truth at the heart of the Universe and transcends ALL BOUNDARIES.”

-Deepak Chopra

We each have our own individual spiritual journey. We may be introduced to religion at a very young age, and that is part of the journey, but it’s just the beginning. Spirituality is more than being told what to believe. Our spirituality is about our connection with the Being that we believe is the Creator(s) of ALL things.

Our connection is personal. It cannot be shoved down our throats, forced, or coerced. We feel the connection inside or we don’t. We have to determine for ourselves how to feel more connected and what makes us feel less connected. This piece is a little more personal than many of the pieces I’ve written so far in the 90-Day A Better Me Series. It’s because the spiritual journey is a personal journey. I can’t tell another person the right or wrong way to connect. I can only share my journey from fear to love and what that did for my life, my connection, and my feelings towards others.

One of the ways I feel more connected through nature. I get to connect with the pure energy running through the Earth that my feet touch, feeling air grazing against my skin, hearing nature in action, seeing the miracles of each creation, and tasting the foods that nature brings to my plate. I see the Divine Creator in the energy of life. I connect through my AWE.

Another way, I feel connected is through meditation. I once heard that prayer was a place to ask the question and meditation is a place we can be quiet enough to hear and feel the answer. That has proved true in my life. When I’m really connected, I’m amazed at what can come out after a meditation.

I can also feel more connected with an individual, group of individuals, or stories about individuals experiences who share the same excitement about connection. This connection is not always spiritual to the people I’m with, that I’m watching, or reading about. But to me, anytime we are celebrating acts of love, I’m connected to Spirit. It’s part of the reason I can cry anytime I’m moved by a stories that express love. It could be a beer commercial and if I’m connected to an act of love, I’m one with the Divine Creator—And yes there can be waterfalls coming out of my eyes during beer commercials.

As for what disconnects me, listening to individuals teaching fear makes me feel less connected. I remember sitting in church as a little girl and something didn’t feel right. I felt shame sitting there. I felt unworthy. I felt unlovable. As I grew older and experienced different religious practices with friends, I saw that not all religious services were the same. I saw not all interpretations of the Creator made me feel unworthy. I didn’t realize that it was my connection to spirit leading me at the time, I actually felt lost for many years. The Divine had actually been answering my prayers and I wasn’t lost, I was being led on my spiritual journey.

I’ve been drawn to many books, classes, religious services, and people over the years that find away to connect different religious practices through their stories of love in action. I’ve been drawn to services that make me want to take notes because they give me so many ideas on how to incorporate practices into my daily life. Looking back, every note I took gave me ways to add more love to my life and feel more compassion and understanding about my views of others and  views about myself.

As I got older, I finally had my AHA moment. My spiritual journey connected to Spirit through acts of love. That is why when I was taught to fear my Creator it didn’t feel right. That is why when I heard someone say, “I’m a God fearing man”, I would have a visceral reaction. That is why when I finally saw the definition of love in Corinthians in the Bible EVERYTHING came together in my head. I had to remember all the editors of these stories, interpreters of the words, representatives of religious practices in every work of religion are HUMAN! Every person interpreting the work is going to be affected by the words in their own way. Humans have agenda. The agenda may be for people to create more love, but others may be to instill fear. That’s why we can go to six different services within the same sector of religion and hear and feel messages of fear or love. Some of them try to mix the two, which by the definition of love that I follow (See Day 32), isn’t love. Love doesn’t cause us to fear our Creator. Humans do. Love doesn’t cause pain—FEAR DOES! My connection to Spirit has nothing to do with how other individuals view the printed word, scriptures, and/or sermons.  How they read a book and interpret words is their personal journey.

My connection is through the love that I feel in my heart and soul. I literally feel it in my body. My connection is through the miracles in life that have been about acts of love. Wayne Dyer described ego as, “Edging God Out.” When I connect to Source (Spirit, Divine, Creator, God) through love, my spiritual path feels clear and unclouded. I don’t do things in fear that I won’t be accepted into Heaven. I do thing because I genuinely want to show love and compassion to all that has been created, even if I truly don’t understand its purpose.  I do things because I want to make this Earthly experience better. I do things because I want to leave this world knowing that I spread as much love as I possibly could. I want to leave my body knowing that I loved and appreciated it for the time I was meant to have it.

I don’t have to believe in each person’s interpretation of Spirit to connect to him or her. I connect through the love that I know a person has inside them. I can pray for a person to find their way out of the dark (fear, hate, blame, shame, judgment). I can pray for myself to not get caught up in mine. My spiritual journey has led me to appreciate the love in the world. I’m not going to follow a figure through acts of fear—I follow through acts of love. Part of my journey has been about not confusing the two.

I personally love hearing how people connect to their personal spiritual journeys. When I HEAR and FEEL the love people have in their heart, it’s a palpable energy that creates miracles. I don’t have to believe what someone else believes to feel the love (light). Just like I don’t have to believe what someone else believes to feel the fear (absence of light). I also don’t have to accept someone else’s darkness.

As a human, I won’t always spread my light in a perfect way, because I still have dark parts of me that get triggered in the face of other people’s darkness. I have to sometimes step back  to gain some perspective and see how to approach a situation with love. My reactions can still be quick sometimes. In those moments, I’m not connected with Source energy. I’m not connected by my love; I’m connected to my fear. The blessing is with sometimes a little prayer and quiet, other times with a lot of prayer and quite— I find my way back. It’s all about the journey!

Just for Today

Look at what makes you feel connected and/or disconnect from Spirit. How has this affected your spiritual journey? Do you energized when you are connected? Do you feel depleted when you don’t? What can you do for yourself to help you increase your connection?

 

With Love and Gratitude,

 

Rachael Wolff ©2019

 

Today’s Letter from A Better Me is, “Embracing Love on My Spiritual Journey” Read it here. Scroll down to follow if you want to get notified when new posts come out.  Thank you for reading!