Daily Aligning with Love, Abundance, and Peace #344

I’m grateful for waking up spiritually! This one was a long journey for me. I grew up with very confusing beliefs about what it meant to live a spiritual life. There were so many mixed messages that confused love with fear, abundance with lack, and peace with separation. I went through some very dark times as a result. My shame and guilt for being human kept me from KNOWING love for what it truly is. Just thinking about those days brings tears to my eyes. But without those days, I wouldn’t be where I am today. I’m grateful for all the experiences, thoughts, beliefs, and people along the way that have helped me to WAKE UP to my spirituality.

My experiences make my spiritual journey what it is. Each person’s is going to look different. I’m not here to judge anyone else’s spirituality or their journeys. The only person’s spirituality I’m responsible and accountable for is my own. I embraced the journey of waking up even though some parts of the process were challenging and painful. The journey of staying awake definitely takes daily work. I still have some old embedded beliefs that come to the surface from time to time, but now I’m more equipped to let those old ideas pass without much chaos.

I love my faith, belief, and trust I have because of where my spirituality has taken me. I’m reminded daily that I’m protected in the most amazing love there is. When I let myself sit in that energy, I tingle all over and feel an inner expansion beyond description.

Today, I commit to igniting my spiritual awareness. Whenever I align with the energy of fear, lack, and separation, I’ve stopped paying attention to my relationship with the Divine Source. The Divine does not live in the energy of fear, lack, and separation because the Source is pure love, so to ignite my spiritual awareness, it’s only possible if I am aligned with love, abundance, and peace. Even if it is only for the moment I’m experiencing it. I can move in and out of the energy. The more I practice consciously aligning, the longer I stay.

When I’m in my spiritual awareness, I see and feel signs physically, emotionally, and creatively that I’m there. How it looks and feels to me may be different than how it does for you. The feeling of AWE is one of my easiest doorways into experiencing my relationship with God on a more intimate level. I write about AWE a lot. It’s such an essential piece of my spiritual journey.

One of the ways I love igniting my spiritual awareness:

  1. Put on meditation music
  2. Do a short meditation to quiet my mind
  3. Get out my notebook
  4. Close my eyes with my pen in hand
  5. Write out a question like, “What is important for me to know right now on my spiritual journey?”
  6. Set timer for a minimum of 15 minutes and start free-writing, which means no going back and no editing

Some of the most amazing and profound things are revealed here. To follow, I tend to see how what I wrote comes alive in my experiences. It’s pretty wild how it works. I’ve committed to myself to have an open relationship with God. I don’t limit my time and/or communication to any specific practices. I do truly feel the Divine everywhere and in every experience as long as I make the choice to stay open and awake.

When I need help moving out of the energy of fear, lack, and separation, I ask the Source for help. Just me calling awareness to the energy helps me release the power I’ve given it over my thoughts and opens me up to receive Divine wisdom.

With Love, Abundance, and Peace,

©Rachael Wolff 2021, Author of Letters from a Better Me: How Becoming an Empowered Woman Transforms the World Available in audiobook, ebook, and paperback (click title to learn more)

90-Day A Better Me Letters Series: Day 56 – The Safety of My Self-Love

Letters from A Better Me

90-Day A Better Me Letters Series

Part II: A Journey of Perspective

What Launches Us Forward: The Stable Foundation

Day 56: The Safety of My Self-Love

Dear Universe,

I feel so incredibly safe since I started truly loving myself. I know I’m on this journey doing the best I can. I have to commit to growing and expanding the love within me. I can only do that by uncovering the things that are blocking me from experiencing the full capacity of my love. I can’t put my faith in human interpretations of words. I have to go deeper. I have to find my connections in the loving energy that the words can’t express, but that actions can show. It’s more important for me to grow and expand than shrink and contain.

I’m a big fan of people who live with love as their guiding force; some are Christians, some are Jews, some are Muslims, some are Hindus, some are Buddhists, some are atheists, some are Democrats, some are Republicans, some are Americans, Some have dark skin, some have light skin, some are homosexual, some are heterosexual, some are women, some are men, and I can go on and on. Loving energy cannot be contained into any one path or any one title. When I found the love within myself beyond what I’ve been taught to fear—I found peace, connection, love, hope, and joy.

I will choose paths spiritually, physically, emotionally, mentally, and financially that help me to understand love and how to live my life from a loving place from the inside out. I choose people to guide me on my personal path who teach me how to expand my love, help me accept all of my light and darkness within me, so that I can serve humanity shining my brightest light possible. Any belief (perspective of truth) I choose that keeps me from experiencing love is a belief to be questioned and transformed. I’m embracing the all-encompassing energy of love, which means I need to know how to love and honor myself so that the love is always safe and secure.

The safety of my self-love protects me and keeps my boundaries healthy. I love the journey I’m on. I love getting to learn about the fears I still have and the ones I’ve grown out of. I love that no matter how others treat me; I will love me more and do what is best for my journey. I love me, so I take care of me. I can’t expect someone else to take care of me better than I’m taking care of myself. If someone’s energy isn’t healthy for me to be around, I have to make choices to protect me, not from a place of fear, but from a place of self-care. I want to serve the world with my best foot forward, and I can only do that by putting the oxygen mask on me first. The better I treat myself, the better I can treat the world outside of me.

I’m growing my own beautiful garden within my mind. I’m choosing to nourish this garden with lots of love. I’m choosing to grow and expand this garden through my loving actions towards myself and others. I’m choosing seeds from other’s beautiful gardens that match the loving energy I have inside me. How I maintain my garden is up to me. What plants, trees, and flowers I choose to plant is up to me. What seeds I choose to let go of is up to me. I choose not to let the smothering vines of fear take over my garden. I want to dig them out from the roots. Those roots told me I wasn’t lovable exactly as I am. Those roots said I had no value or worth. Those roots told me to fear what is different. I’m digging these roots up. I’m learning from what happens when I leave these vines unattended. I’m seeing how my self-love keeps these vines from coming back and smuggling all my beautiful species I’ve planted.

I’m worthy of the love I give to myself. I’m worthy of the time I contribute to my self-care. I’m worthy of the nurturing I feed my body, mind, and soul. I am created from Divine Energy, the purest of all lights. I honor the energy that created me by letting my love for myself shine through connecting me to Source energy, the strongest and most beautiful light that lives within me.

Today I’m Grateful

  1. I’m grateful that love cannot be contained within any ONE path
  2. I’m grateful to know my worth so that I can love myself
  3. I’m grateful for each day I get to expand and grow from the love within me
  4. I’m grateful for the opportunities I get to learn from other people’s loving actions
  5. I’m grateful to connect to the light of the Divine through the light shining within me.

 

With Love and Gratitude,

 

A Better Me

 

Rachael Wolff ©2019

Don’t forget to read today’s companion piece: 90-Day A Better Me Series: Day 56 – The Safe Foundation of Self-Love

Prepared to Learn: Getting an Unexpected Lesson

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I recently attended the final Hay House I Can Do It conference in Ft. Lauderdale. I was amazed with all the speakers. I took tons of notes and listened to every detail that I could get to stick. I was surrounded by over 1,000 positive and loving people  in one room. The energy of the room lifted me up to amazing levels. I was in learning mode. I expected to get a lot from the speakers over this two-day event. Day One, I was overjoyed with all the powerful information and tools I was getting to take on my day. I was charged…

So, with all of that going on, how could I be attacked with such rage and anger? As my two friends and I were coming in from eating our awesome leftovers from Mellow Mushroom, I was excitedly engaged in a conversation about all the amazing information and inspiration. I had one eye in front of me and one focused on my friend. Our other friend was walking a few steps behind. All the sudden my foot hits a foot in front of me. Baffled and confused, I of course apologize to the usher I tripped on, but I had no idea how I had missed her. I was looking ahead. She instantly jumps into attack mode, got in my face, and started screaming at me at the top of her lungs. “Watch where you are going! Do you think you can just walk all over people?…” My friends and I were in total shock at this interaction. Fight-flight response took over. I went into feeling like a scared little girl being blamed for something I didn’t do and didn’t understand. My friend on the other hand went into fight mode, but luckily with all the great energy we had sucked in, knew it was best to talk to a supervisor and simply say, “Bless you!” Our other friend, who saw the whole thing, just kept repeating, “Do not engage, bless you, bless you, bless you.”

After we walked away,  I was told the woman had sped around me and was aimed at cutting around me but had to walk in my path to avoid the people sitting on the bench. The reason I never saw her is because she cut over into my walking space and I couldn’t catch her in my peripheral because my head was turned to the right. I was in such shock, my nerves were on edge. Every usher I passed made me feel like a scared little girl trying to avoid a dangerous stranger. I walked with complete tension and my heart wouldn’t stop pounding. I couldn’t understand how this could have happened here of all places. I needed this conference. I needed to be filled with the energy to get me out of the grief I’d been facing because of the recent passing of my “Gifted Mom”(my dad’s partner). I just had surgery on my face and needed to stop being so focused on that. How could this have happened here and now?  Haven’t I gone through enough in the last six weeks?

We went back to our seats, and I knew I wasn’t up for reporting the incident. I just needed to get myself out of the trauma and into a better head space so I could enjoy and absorb the rest of the event. I knew if I stayed where I was,  I wouldn’t get what I needed. So my friends went off to report the incident and I sat in silence.

Deep breaths and connect, deep breaths and connect. I know this happened for a reason, I started with a prayer: “Help me to figure out the reason for this lesson, so I can move on from it and stay connected to the energy of love and gratitude.” Deep breaths, deep breaths, I was so grateful I had just heard techniques to get me out of this. Davidji talked about the power of connection and mediation, “Connect to our guardian soul.” was one of the messages I wrote down. He also talked about the fight-flight response and what happens physically and emotionally to us when its happening. He quoted Pema Chodron, “The things you cling to make you unavailable to learn something new.” I knew I had to re-connect and get passed this. The situation with the usher happened after I just heard all this. My friends came back and told me the manager apologized and they would look into it. They were going to meet her again after the next break. My breathing steadied, but my adrenaline was still coming down and had a ways to go.

Kris Carr  was up next, somehow I knew I was going to get the answers I needed. She quoted Louise Hay who said, “It’s only a thought, and a thought can be changed.” My mantra, “Deep breaths, connect, deep breaths, connect.” Mastin Kipp followed Carr.  Kipp said, “Negative emotions are a call to awareness.” YES! YES! YES! My Aha moment arrived. One of my biggest challenges I’ve faced in my life is my connection to being blamed for something I didn’t do. It stemmed from when I was a little girl. This negative exchange took me right back to being that defenseless little girl. I have been dealing with this negative thought pattern for a long time. It had been so long since it was engaged, I buried it. When I was in high school, these thoughts made me suicidal. Luckily, or I should say I was protected because both times it happened I was in places where I could get help immediately. I needed to once again face this fear, but this time with fresh tools to get through it.  I once again was protected and in the perfect situation to get the help I needed.  I will tell you, nothing makes techniques stick better than applying them right away.

After the next break, we found out the woman thought that we were 19-20 year olds. I like to think I look young, but that is a little drastic. She didn’t see us at all. She was wrapped up in her own head feeling walked on by the younger generations. Her reaction had nothing at all to do with me. I knew that logically, but knowing she had no concept of the fact that we were all over double that age, I knew I was looking at a very hurt and wounded woman. I could see her with eyes of compassion and pray for her healing. I could also look at how far I had come from my younger self. I got exactly what I needed, which made me think of something Mastin Kipp said, “What’s the spiritual lesson in this?…This is happening for you, not to you.”

The rest of the day, I continued to get what I needed. Cheryl Richardson asked, “Are you willing to take your own heroes’ journey?” My reply, “YES!!” Gregg Braden was the final speaker. He showed us a technique to help the heart and the brain to work together. The coolest part is it was all based on science. Very interesting findings!! The event was over, I left better than I came and in a very short time, I grew.

How we look at things and deal with the people and events around us is so important. If we are responding negatively to our situation, we are putting that hurtful energy into ourselves then breathing it back into the world. We need to ask ourselves, is this what we want? Are we going to miss opportunities from being caught up in a fight-flight response? Are we getting caught up in negative thoughts that can change to more positive ones? What is my lesson? How can I be and do better to serve myself and humanity?

With Love and Gratitude,

Rachael Wolff